lil maries livejournal

Omg, So my best friends big sis is getting married already!!!! My friend sent me a link to her sis's dress:




which got me to a huntin on the site just for kicks and i realllllllllllyyyy like this one (plus it has my name in it) :














pretttttyyyyyy!

Community medical_qs is a medical info/?/news/whatever that myself and huggscancer have started. feel free to join yall!!!!!

O.K. so I have state whether race, religion, politics, or labor, was the most important to the formation of the american identity between the first settlers and the civil war (I have to show examples from 3 of these time periods, first settlers, nat'l expansion, slavery, civil wartime etc)

I'm thiiinking religion, but im not sure


any ideas?

Aww.... the lil 5yo wee un tried to go on monkey bars with gloves on apparently on sunday so she broke her ulna right at the elbow joint and has a shoulder high cast on for 3-6 weeks..... poor thing

Galapagos
In the footsteps of darwin
Dates

Description

Credits

Faculty
Eligibility

Cost

Application & Deadline

Contact

DATES

January 4– 17, 2007

DESCRIPTION

Students who take this 3-credit course will explore the jungle highlands of Ecuador and its capitol, Quito, the dramatic volcanic islands that gave Darwin key ideas for framing his theory of evolution, and (snorkeling) the equatorial waters of the Pacific Ocean teeming with unique species of fish, sea lions, penguins, sea turtles, and iguanas. Over half the trip will be on a tour boat with a highly trained naturalist who will give lectures on Darwin, evolution, controversies about the origin of species, and the history of animal, human, and political occupation of the Galapagos Islands. We will also enjoy lectures by Darwin Research Station scientists and native Galapagon residents as we visit various islands that have been described by many as a virtual Garden of Eden. A scientific background is not required to understand the unique sense of place, the historic role the islands have played, the evidence of evolution, and the challenges, including eco-tourism, of preserving this extraordinary natural assets.


CREDITS

3 Mason Credits in GOVT 444, 739, ANTH 399, SOCI 395, EVPP 490, 741, GEOL, GEOG 333, 533, HIST



FACULTY



Brack Brown, George Mason University





ELIGIBILITY

The program is open to George Mason University and non-Mason students of all levels, staff, faculty, and alumni, as well as the general public. To obtain credit, you need at least a 2.25 GPA. Participant should be in good physical condition as high altitude conditions and numerous small boat landings are among the trip experiences.



A passport that is valid for more than 6 months is required to travel to Ecuador.

If you are not a U.S. citizen it is your responsibility to check requirements to travel to Ecuador. More information can be found at http://www.ecuador.us/info/embassy.htm



COST

Program Fee: $4,253

The fee includes:

Round-trip international airfare between Washington, D.C. and Quito, Ecuador
Tours of the Capitol, Quito , and nearby jungle highlands
Internal Round-trip airfare to Galapagos
Double-occupancy rooms in hotels and cabins on boat
3 credits of Mason tuition
8 day cruise to the Galapagos Islands
Day excursions to Islands
Most meals
Transportation to and from academic-related sites in Ecuador
Transfers between airports and hotels in Ecuador
Admission fee or entrance charge to all academic-related sites/parks in Ecuador, including the $100 Galapagos national park fee
Services of an English-speaking guide in the Galapagos and Andean Highlands
Local taxes and service charges on items listed above
International Student Identity Card
Travel guidebooks for the Galapagos Islands
Assistance of/Supervision by an on-site Mason Faculty Director
Organizational and administrative costs in the USA and Ecuador
Limited Emergency Evacuation Insurance
Pre-departure Orientation (December 2006)


What is not included:

Alcoholic beverages during any planned group meal
Tips to guides and servers
Personal expenses of any nature
Textbooks
Mandatory health insurance that will cover you overseas
anything not specifically mentioned above
Financial Aid may apply.

CGE Scholarships are available!



CGE reserves the right to make any necessary changes including adjustments in cost in the event that unforeseen circumstances arise.



APPLICATION & DEADLINE

Deadline: Friday, October 6, 2006



Participants who submit a completed application (CGE application and all required application materials) by September 15, 2006 will receive a $100 discount off the program fee.



To apply, first, consult the “How to Apply” section and, second, complete the application materials.

Incomplete applications will not be considered. You must pay a non-refundable $100 ($50 application fee and $50 airline deposit) for your application to be considered.



CONTACT INFORMATION

For more information, please attend a study abroad info session.

Program Officer: Carolyn Baum

Fill it out and post it in a reply to me :)

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2. Age:
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4. Favorite Movie:
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HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of Live Journal?
2. Whats your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if i asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Aghh! i'm all sickish but not sickish.... woke up yesterday havin a slight stomach ache and feelin a little outta it with a 99.4 temp.... still the same but a little more dizzy.......... ugg.

This morning, I had to put my best friend, my dalmatian lisa who i've had for eleven years to sleep. She was never the brightest dog in the world but she was truly special, she taught me to be as compassionate and patient as I am today. Lisa had epilepsy, and usually had 10+ grand mal seizures a year lasting three minutes or more, so I would have to just talk her thru them, and wait patiently whill her long term memory came back so that she would remember me which usually took many hours. Seizures, as some of you know, arent necessarily neat and pretty either, but I loved her and would never dream of not keeping her, nursing her back to health, and medicating her with 120mg's of phenobarbitol every day. In return she was the most pain in the ass, loving, loyal dog ever, she was my shadow, and even more stubborn than I am... towards the end i think every night she owned more of the bed than I did. It is our suspicion that lisa had a seizure thursday night which caused a brain aneurysm, later leading to multi systems failure. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do to let her go, but I could tell she was ready, she had a look in her eyes I have seen all to many times before, she was worn out, and in pain, and just wanted to go home.

Rest in Peace Lisa Girl, You were truly a blessing to me, and I still miss you and Bart very much.... I will always remember how my two troublesome epileptic dalmatians gave me great joy, and taught me the art of caring.

wow, im getting....old or something.... the thought of randomly typing crap seems less and less fun these days

anywho, Im glad im moved out and on my own now, but BILLS ARE EVIL! I gots 1200 dolla worth of bills that need a paying this month, plus I really do need to buy an eating/dining table of sorts for my place so that I actually have somewhere to sit and eat other than my couch.

I also officially HATE cox cable, they were supposed to come on wednesday so that I was happy and had cable again, but they didnt, and told me that I would need to reschedule, and yelled at me when I wouldnt accept a time inconvienient to me.... I asked to talk to the supervisor of the sales dept and was told "they were on the line" but that they would call me back.... I'm still waiting for that call....

everythings been pretty much boring in my life recently, just work, work, more work, and volunteering a little here and there.... at least it keeps me busy and less depressed about realizin how pathetically single I am but thats ok I guess....

My application to FCPD will be goin in next april so the wee lil bit of free time I have I spend exercising, and getting myself ready for an interesting 6 months of my life... at which point hopefully I will be able to fling myself over the evil wall which is taller than me that I need to do to become an officer....should be interesting.....

I'm just glad to be fairly back to a normal routine again from my 2 monthish mental health vacation, and hope to get more involved with my fd volunteering, and keep up with all my pd volunteering stuff.

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and people wonder why I don't drink lol

Sometimes, when I look at my children, I say to myself "Lillian, you should have remained a virgin."
-- Lillian Carter (mother of Jimmy Carter)

I had a rose named after me and I was very flattered. But I was not pleased to read the description in the catalog: "No good in a bed, but fine against a wall."
-- Eleanor Roosevelt

Last week, I stated this woman was the ugliest woman I had ever seen. I have since been visited by her sister, and now wish to withdraw that statement.
-- Mark Twain

The secret of a good sermon is to have a good beginning and a good ending; and to have the two as close together as possible.
-- George Burns

Santa Claus has the right idea. Visit people only once a year.
-- Victor Borge

Be careful about reading health books. You may die of a misprint.
-- Mark Twain

By all means, marry. If you get a good wife, you'll become happy; if you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher.
-- Socrates

I was married by a judge. I should have asked for a jury.
-- Groucho Marx

My wife has a slight impediment in her speech. Every now and then she stops to breathe.
-- Jimmy Durante

I have never hated a man enough to give his diamonds back.
-- Zsa Zsa Gabor

Only Irish coffee provides in a single glass all four essential food groups: alcohol, caffeine, sugar and fat.
-- Alex Levine

My luck is so bad that if I bought a cemetery, people would stop dying.
-- Rodney Dangerfield

Money can't buy you happiness, but it does bring you a more pleasant form of misery.
-- Spike Milligan

I am opposed to millionaires... but it would be dangerous to offer me the position.
-- Mark Twain

Until I was thirteen, I thought my name was SHUT UP.
-- Joe Namath

I don't feel old. I don't feel anything until noon. Then it's time for my nap.
-- Bob Hope

I never drink water because of the disgusting things that fish do in it.
-- W.C. Fields

We could certainly slow the aging process down if it had to work its way through Congress.
-- Will Rogers

Don't worry about avoiding temptation. As you grow older, it will avoid you.
-- Winston Churchill

Maybe it's true that life begins at fifty ... but everything else starts to wear out, fall out, or spread out.
-- Phyllis Diller

By the time a man is wise enough to watch his step, he's too old to go anywhere.
-- Billy Crystal

The cardiologist's diet: If it tastes good, spit it out.

1. Yourself: unique

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend : none

3. Your hair: long

4. Your Mother: working

5. Your Father: invisible

6. Your Favorite Item: sig

7. Your dream last night: secret

8. Your Dream Home: country

9. The Room You Are In: expensive

10. Favorite Color: cerulean

11. Your fear: jobless

12. Where do you want to be in ten years?: Fairfax1

13. Who you hung out with last night: saaaaaaaaammmmm

14. What You're Not: normal

15. Your Best Friend: vanessa

16. One of Your Wish List Items: boyfriend

17. Your Gender: chica

18. The Last Thing You Did: work

19. What You Are Wearing: clothes

20. Your Favorite Weather: medium

22. The Last Thing You Ate: banana

23. Your Life: lucky

24. Your Mood: lacadazical

25. Who are you: polimedic

yay! im finally not gunna have a pos phone!

my new phone i'm getting tomarrow:

To: All EMS Personel
From: Cheif of Operations
Subject: Proper Narrative Descriptions

It has come to our attention from several emergency rooms that many EMS narrative have taken a decidedly creative direction lately. Effective immediately, all members are to refrain from using slang and abbreviations to describe patients, such as the following.

1) Cardiac patients should not be referred to as suffering from MUH (messed up heart), PBS (pretty bad shape), PCL (pre-code looking), or HIBGIA (had it before, got it again).

2) Stroke patients ae NOT "Charlie Carrots." Nor are rescuers to use CCFCCP (Coo Coo for Cocoa Puffs) to describe their mental status.

3) Trauma patients are not CATS (cut alll to sh*t), FDGB (fall down, go boom), TBC (total body crunch), "hamburger helper", or FUBAR (F*cked up beyond all recognition). Similarly, descriptions of a car crash do not have to include phrases like "negative vihicle to vehicle interface" or "terminal deceleration syndrome".

4) HAZMAT teams are highly trained professionals, not "glow worms".

5) Persons with altered mental states as a result of drug use are not considered "pharmmaceutically gifted".

6) Gunshot wounds to the head are not "trans-occipital implants".

7) The homeless are not "urban outdoorsmen," nor is endotracheal intubation reffered to as a "PVC Challenge".

8) And finally, do not refer to recently deceased persons as being "paws up", ART (assuming room temprature), CC (Cancel Christmas), CTD (circling the drain), DTR (dead right there), or NLPR (no longer playing records).

I know you will all join me in respecting the cultural diversity of our patients to include their medical orientations in creating proper narratives and log entries.

The following additions below will also not be used:

LOLFDGB?

Little Old Lady Fall Down Go Boom?

GOMER = Get out of my ER

GTO = GOMER Tipped Over

GTOFDGB... Gomer tipped over, fall down go boom

Ems= Extra Marital Sex

BAGM= Brotherhood of American Ghetto Medics

MFC = measure for coffin

DAN = Darwin Award Nominee

DRTTT (Messy pedestrian struck - dead right there, there and there)

CC - Cancel Christmas

NLPR - No Longer Playing Records

PVC's or other ectopy - FLB's - Funky Little Beats.

V-Fib - Funny Squiggly Lines

"Terminal Deceleration Syndrome."

"Cement Poisoning"

TMB - Too Many Birthdays

ok, so i was really really bored.....

1. Give me your number?
2. Make love to me?
3. Let me kiss you?
4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. Let me take you out to dinner?
6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. Have a fling with me?
8. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
9. Buy me a drink if I didnt have money?
10. Take me home for the night?
11. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
12. Sing car kareoke w/ me?
13. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
14. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
15. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
16. Do you think I'm sexy?
17. Do you like my style?
18. Do you think I'm funny?
19. Do you care about me?
20. Would you cry if i died?
21. Would you dance with me?
22. Would you sing happy birthday to me?

******* The Analysis Starts Here *******


For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Marie has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Marie fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Marie has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Marie is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Marie would like to leave the past behind and move on.


Marie has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.




One way Marie punishes herself is self directed sarcasm. She is a very sarcastic person. Often this sarcasm and "sharp tongued" behavior is directed at herself.


Marie is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Marie basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.


Marie is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Marie learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won't forget. Marie is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate. She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most.



Marie will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!


Marie will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Marie believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.


Marie is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Marie will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Marie an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Marie is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Marie is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.


People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Marie doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.


Marie can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action.


Marie has a desire for attention. People around Marie will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.

omg remind me when im a real police to be violently ill to the point of not being able to work on cinco de mayo...... it was INSANELY busy last night! good lord there were clothing challenged and drunk and all kinds of crazy people last night. there were two seperate groups of individuals huntin for the "bunny man" at the "bunny man bridge" at the same time lastnight!!!!! ugg.... we didnt even get a potty break for like 14 hours, i was like nooooooo!

YES! I'M DONE SKEWL FOR THE SEMESTER! JUMPS FOR JOY! ..... SURE THERES THAT WHOLE PARAMEDIC SKEWL IN THE SU,,ER THING BUT SHHHHH!... LET ME BE BLISSFULLY IGNORANT! OH YA, IM MOVING OUT OF MY PARENTS HOUSE THIS WEEKEND TO A TOWNHOUSE THATS LIKE A 2 MIN DRIVE FROM THE PO-PO STATION AND PO-PO ACADEMY!!!!! SCORE! ANYONE HAVE EXTRA FURNITURE ETC??

:D

P.S. my new icon is derived from a police sketch of a pedestrian v. vehicle incident in which an individual was thrown by the vehicle, not usually a funny item, however, the officer who drew the sketch took great care in drawing in and noting where the individuals nachos they were carrying landed (red box = car, orange blob = nachos, stick man = person) .... perhaps this calls for an official study on nacho v. moving vehicle and the finding of a nacho + car + distance traveled = speed equation? cm'on anyone willing to be the nacho striker? i'll even clean the nachoey goo off your car for ya afterwards.....

haha, a true ad in my local paper "GOT POOP? We scoop! Dooy Calls pet waste removal service. call us today for a clean yard tomarrow!" ... i wonder if they charge per the doody

Tired of questions by 15 year olds who have never lived in the real world?? Here's one for the folks who have actually lived:

1. Worst damage you ever took in a fight? bruises allll over my face, a nosebleed, and a couplea bruised bones on my hand, i looked pretty gross....

2. Most money you ever owed a utility company? umm none

3. Last time you got kicked out of a bar? never been kicked out

4. Longest time you slept in a car? 14 hours

5. Most fucked up nickname you've ever been given? f'ing smurfette, what the bloody heck is that all about? i swear to god if that gets started again when im in the academy someones getting their butt kicked!

6. Worst job you ever had? ugg babysititing for satans child himself for like $3 an hour when i was 13

7. Shortest job you've ever had? demon child (2 days)

8. Longest romantic relationship? about a year

9. Shortest romantic relationship? a day

10. Food that you would eat until you puked? applesauce mmmmmmmm!

11. Food that even looking at makes you puke? that creamed liver crap thats green, ewwwe!

12. What music saved your life? wtf? if music saves your life you have a sad sad life

13. Person you miss the most in the world? My grampa pop-pop he was the coolest and most caring person i ever knew

14. Worst movie you've ever seen? omg the zodiac and the green river killer, i totally didnt expect them to be such retarded cheap makes of movies

15. Best movie you've ever seen? **** http://duffx.com/videos/duffx_yetanother.wmv *******

16. What is your fondest High School Memory? haha going in a charter bus to homecoming and dancing around in it and yelling chantilly sux! in chantilly's home turf!

17. Ever almost die? Yep, there were the 7 times my heart stopped when i was born, plus the time I almost drowned in the atlantic ocean up in ocean city new jersey

18. Ever fistfight a member of the opposite sex? yep.

19. Best place you have ever lived? southern california

20. Worst place you have ever lived? meh, cville's not too bad, so none?

21. Bad habit you have: being overly cautious around guys due to some bad past experiences.

22. Noise that makes you want to punch people? ::cheerleader voice:: "ohh my gaaaaaawwwddddd squuueeeeeeeaaaaakkkkk yay like ummm i love your hair!"

23. Your favorite tattoo? ones that mean something, like sentimentally

24. Least favorite tattoo? anything other than on arms, back, or like ankle

25. At your poorest, were you a ramen noodle or mac n' cheese aficionado? both!!!!! why u gotsa be poor to eat em? lol

26. Most money you have ever spent on a single meal? like $80.00

27. Best gift you ever got? my friends family had a b-day party for me this year for my 20th and got me presents and stuff and my own family never even did that... made me feel wanted

28. Best pet you ever had? lisa, even though she is mentally retarded, has seizures, and is a fire instead of a po-po dog lol

29. Ever run from the cops? yes! corporal hothands! he scared me so i ran to the front of the group of people running in youth police academy! lol

30. Money or love: Love! it aint supposedta be just about the money

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so then i had a very erm... different... birthday on saturday than what most 20yo girls would view as a cool b-day.... i went to the range from 0700-1200 and shot off about 300 rounds. I was actually very proud of my shooting skills and out of the 300 only missed a target for 2 rounds which isnt bad for not going shooting since a year and a half ago. It was actually pretty cool because apparently the other explorers and officers secretely bought me a huge b-day cake and we all celebrated my b-day in the range classroom.

Then easter was actually the coolest easter i've ever had, my mom, her friend karen, my sister, her friend olivia, my brother greg, my friend stephanie, and myself all went to six flags all day to ride rollercoasters and the park was practically empty the whole day ( i complained about a ten min wait while they had to clean a ride, usually its like hour and a half waits) oh, and we saw shana and keith there which was cool and now the whole firestation definetely has to go sometime. My favorite part of the day was the sky coaster where you get pulled up on a line a hundred feet or so and you pull a cord to go flying back and forth, the first drop was scary b/c you head straight down towards the ground until the line goes taught and you start flying back and forth.... we actually had so much fun we did it again and were the last flight of the night.

my ma said sixflags on easter might be our new tradition lol....

oh, and by the way season passes are currently the SAME PRICE as a regular admission to the park! so for $50 i get to go back whenever I want!

ok so i got tired of the retardedness level of our post website (post1742.org) so i made my own for us (post1742.com)... still nothing spectacular, but a big improvement definetely

http://www.trauma.org/resus/moulage/moulage.html

*******Dedicated to Paramedics, Fire and Police Officers and their Dispatchers:*******



I wish you could comprehend a wife's horror at 6 in the morning as I Check her husband of 40 years for a pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping to bring him back, knowing intuitively it is too late. But wanting his wife and family to know everything possible was done to try and save his life.

I wish you knew the unique smell of burning insulation, the taste of soot-filled mucus, the feeling of intense heat through your turnout gear, the sound of flames crackling, the eeriness of being able to see absolutely nothing in dense smoke-sensations that I've become too familiar with.

I wish you could read my mind as I respond to a call, Is a this false alarm or a working fire? How is the building constructed? What Hazards await me? Is anyone trapped?" Or to call and ask what is wrong with the patient? Is it minor or life threatening? Is the caller really in distress or is he waiting for us with a 2x4 or a gun?

I wish you could be in the emergency room, as a doctor pronounces dead, the beautiful five-year old girl that I have been trying to save during the past 25 minutes, knowing she will never go on her first date or say the words, "I love you Mommy", ever again.

I wish you could know the frustration I feel in the cab of the ambulance or engine or cruiser, the driver with his foot pressing down hard on the pedal, my arm tugging again and again at the air horn chain, as you fail to yield the right-of-way at an intersection or in traffic. When you need us however, your first comment upon our arrival will be, "It took you forever to get here!"

I wish you could know my thoughts as I help extricate a girl of teenage years from the remains of her automobile. What if this was my daughter, sister, my girlfriend or a friend? What were her parent's reaction going to be when they opened the door to find a
police officer with hat in hand?

I wish you could know how it feels to walk in the back door and greet my parents and family, not having the heart to tell them that I nearly did not come back from the last call.

I wish you could know how it feels dispatching officers, firefighters and Paramedics out and when we call for them and our heart drops because no one answers back or to here a bone chilling 911 call of a child or wife needing assistance.

I wish you could feel the hurt as people verbally and sometimes physically abuse us or belittle what I do, or as they express their attitudes of "It will never happen to me". I wish you could realize the physical, emotional and mental drain of missed meals, lost sleep and forgone social activities, in addition to all the tragedy my eyes have seen.

I wish you could know the brotherhood and self-satisfaction of helping save a life or preserving someone's property, or being able to be there in time of crisis, or creating order from total chaos.

I wish you could understand what it feels like to have a little boy tugging at your arm and asking, "Is my Mommy okay?"! , not even being able to look in his eyes without tears from your own and not knowing what to say. Or to have to hold back a long time friend who watches his buddy having CPR done on him as they take him away in the Medic Unit. You know all along he did not have his seat belt on. A sensation that I have become too familiar with.

Unless you have lived with this kind of life, you will never truly understand or appreciate who I am, we are, or what our job really means to us...I wish you could though.

KEEP SENDING THIS ON. APPRECIATE AND SUPPORT THE LOCAL FIREFIGHTERS, EMS PARAMEDICS, 911 DISPATCHERS, and LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS IN YOUR AREA. ONE DAY THEY'LL PROBABLY BE SAVING YOUR LIFE. WHEN YOU SEE THEM COMING WITH LIGHTS FLASHING, MOVE OUT OF THE WAY QUICKLY, and THEN PRAY FOR THEM

1) Are your parents married or divorced? divorced

2) Vegetarian? noooooo

3) Heaven? hopefully

4) Come close to dying? well i flatlined 7 times, does that count?

5) What jewelry do you wear 24/7? cross necklace
6) Are you eating? was eatting chips

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? yup

8) Make-up? on a rare occasion

9) Were you the dumper or the dumpee in your past relationship? technically dumper i guess

10) Would you ever have plastic surgery? to remove large scars maybe

11) What do you wear to bed? depends XD

12) Have you ever done anything illegal? speeding, rolling stops at stop signs.... thats about it....

13) Can you roll your tongue? yup

14) Tweeze your eyebrows? a little bit

15) What kind of watch(es)? cheap one from target.... im an emergency responder vollie so im not risking getting a nice one screwed up

16) Heart throb when you were itty bitty? cant remember

17) Hair color? blonde :D

18) Future child's name? Aidan Thomas, Damian Joseph, Eva Ray, or Anna Elizabeth.

19) Do you snore? haha just a "lil"

20) If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you go? england, ireland, and germany

21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? sometimes

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do? buy a big honkin hellicopter and flight lessons
23) Gold or silver? white gold

24) Hamburger or hot dog? hamburger, hot dogs are icky

25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? crunchy chicken salad

26) Beach, city, or country? country!!!! with a yard and a creek and a barn!!!!!!

27) What was the last thing you touched? alive? my damn... i mean dalmatian

28) Where do you eat? breakfast table

29) When's the last time you cried? bout a week ago

30) Have you read blogs? yup

31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? umm... i think the cop uniform covers that pretty well... not really feminine....

32) Ever been involved with the police? haha....just a little.... lets see here.. IM A VOLUNTEER PO-PO ..... nuff said.... never been given a traffic ticket or had any negative interaction w/ them though

33) Do you talk in your sleep? some people say i do

34) Beach or pool? beach

35)What's your favorite song at the moment? everytime we touch by cascada... im single but its an upbeat song so i like it

36) Window seat or aisle?window....aisle seat = marie go signal 34

37) Ever met any famous bands/singers? yup

38) Do you feel that you've ever had a truly successful relationship? haha not in the least

39) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? depends

40) Rickie Lake or Oprah Winfrey? neither

41) Basketball or Football? football!!! although masons in the final 4 so i gotta like bball too

42)Playing or Watching? depends

43) How long do your showers last? bootcamp = 1 minute, relaxing = 30 min

44) Do you drive a stick? haha succesfully? no....

45) Cake or ice cream? ice cream!

46) Self-conscious? definetely

47) What time do you get up? 2pm if i have the choice

48) Have you ever given money to a bum? yup

49) When was your first crush? like 4 yrs ago

50) Have you ever broken someone's heart? haha ya, a gross guys that smelled funny and wanted to go out w/ me

51) Have you ever rode in an ambulance? YEP!!! as a care provider though, not as a patient

52) Last gift you received?my friend gave me imaginary dozen red roses b/c no guy has ever done so and i was complaining

53) Last sport you played? figure skating

54) Things you spend a lot of money on? necessities

55) What should you be doing right now? getting ready for skool

56) Met anyone on myspace that you would now consider a very good friend? i do believe explorer alec and i first contacted eachother via lj..... but someones too busy to hang out with us fairfax county folk these days... i see how it is.... j/k

57) Last time you threw up? like 3 weeks ago

58) Where do you live? home

59) High School you attend(ed)? centreville high school

60) Last wedding attended? ugg my moms to my (ex)stepdad

61) Favorite fast food restaurant? none

62) Where do you work? babysitting for money, po-po and fire station for free

63) Most hated condiment: mustard must die!

64) Favorite pasttime? just lookin at the stars

65) Can you sing? yep

66) Last kiss? like 3 months ago :\

67) Current mood? sleeepy

68) Favorite drink? marble mocha macchiato

69) Current Crush? no one :\ find me someone pllleeeeaaaasssssseeeeeeee

ya so guys officially suck, i am as single as can be at the moment..... umm ya, bout that.

so then i have a bacterial infection in my lungs which caused bronchitis and an asthma attack so im on 8 meds tid (3x a day) and vitals were resp 18(usually 16), temp 102.9(usu 98.3), bp 125/77 (usually 100/68), pulse 101 (usually 70)

im quarentined to my house until all vitals are normal and i feel fine for 48 hours, IT'S MY SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!

basterds....

ya so im only half dying but thats better than all dying right?

im im not better in 4 days im stuck at the hosp :/

im on a switching at half the dose hourage between tylenol and aleve to make my fever break and i have to take cold showers and use icepacks, the drugs are making me sweat like crazy which is REALLY gross!

ugg, i'll keep yall informed.... feel free to im me at annamarie326 (thru aol/aim) if your really bored cuz ill have nothing better to do then sit at the puter

ahhhh! so i didnt make explorer captain, but you know what, thats ok, im almost 20 now, so its time i get ready to start playing with the big boys and girls and get my butt into shape for academy. Sooo Ima start actually working out (i ran for an hour on the treadmill yesterday) I know its going to be tough to survive academy, but im actually kinda looking forward to it, well mostly looking forward to walking across that stage and knowing my work and sweat and caring went into that badge.....but looking forward to the academy part a bit too (cant i be sick on the mace to the face day?)... oooo im excited already....... time to think about being ossifer waters insteada exploder waters, then maybe i can come back and torment the post as an advisor...muhuhuhuwahaha

So then i got in a really bad car wreck about an hour ago. I was left hand turning into a gas station where two of the three straight lanes were backed up and the cars in those straight lanes stopped, so i pulled out perpendicular to them, checked to make sure the last lane was clear, and started ago, then a woman who right turned onto the road i was crossing and started accelerating at hit me at approx 65-70mph (speed limit 45) my car was hit in the very back right rear and spun a little over 90 degrees. I didnt get out at first because my neck hurt, and then I got out and the first things out of my mouth were "mam are you ok" her first words were " my husbands a lawyer!" i was very calm and was just like mam lets just exchange insurance information, and we'll let them take care of everything (mind you my rear wheel axel was broken, my wheel was massacred, my rear bumper was messed up, my rear quarter panel was dented, and my trunk wouldnt shut, her damage? three scratches to her front bumper) she was uncooperative and acting agressive so I called for pd, i explained to the officer calmly what happened, and she continued to yell, so he told her that shed better move her car because its a violation of va law code to leave your car blocking an intersection if your able to move it and started me a tow. he said he would not write me a summons even though i was technically at fault because even though he didnt see her speeding, i was the only calm one and he believed me.


gahhhhhh!!!!! i hate lawyers and their family!

now i gotta pay a crap loada money to fix my car :/

but atleast im fairly o.k.

Good Evening Everyone. For those of you who don’t know me my name is Marie Waters. I am running for the position of captain because I believe that I have both the leadership skills and the time necessary to fulfill the duties of the position. I have been a member of explorers for two years now and an explorer officer for one and a half years of that time. I was also the lead contact during competition at last conference as well as a squad leader at explorer youth academy. After aging out of explorers it is my intention to become a police officer with our department and I believe that becoming captain will help me be a better officer. While explorers is very important to me and I have always been very active with the post by participating in the vast majority of events as well as doing ride-a-longs regularly, I also do other things such as going to school, working, and being an operational member with fire-rescue. Some of you may worry that this would prevent me from fulfilling my duties as captain, however, both at work and at the fire station I have a lot of downtime to study and complete other necessary tasks. The main thing I would like to work on in addition to my regular duties is bringing the post together more as a group. I know that there are many new people in the post and I would like them to feel as comfortable being here as the members who have been here as long as I have. I would also to like to help ensure that all explorers maintain good grades. I currently have a 4.0 gpa and truly believe that a good education is pertinent to a secure job future. Lastly, I would like to ensure that the high reputation this post has maintained over the past 20 years is continued. I truly believe in the benefits of this post. When I first joined I was an average high school student who had no idea what to do with my life, and now I am at the top of my class in college and know exactly what I want to do with my life.


Are there any questions?

Hello All, It has been foorrrrreeeeeevvvvveeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrr since i've updated, but i've been super busy. I got my EMT-Basic cert now (woot! 97 percent on my final exam!) pretty much finished my admin of justice degree except like an english and math credit plus what credits i'll get when i go thru academy, I got accepted to George Mason University so I am now working on my second and third degrees (Nursing and Emergency Health Services) I'll start emt-i in the fall and be done with that by fall of 07 and then medic by fall of 08, oh and just because i'm crazy I have taken up figure skating, because its actually a pretty darn physical sport and it's pretty, and i'm the best in my group. Two weeks ago I had a little ut-oh which was pretty scary. I was horsebackriding and my horse got spooked cuz the wind gusted and something made a noise so I got bucked of and flew about ten feet head first into a pile of rocks. I had a ct scan and they said that i'm very lucky and i only have a contusion on my brain not any sort of hematoma. I still have a pretty bad headache, but my contusions,sprains,and strains all over my body are starting to heal up nicely. It would have been nice if I could have had some codeine or something, but in general vasodilator+ brain injury = very bad idea, so I had to survive on only a very low dose of advil, but with the news of no hematoma i'm definitely happy enough to deal with the pain. I'm not sure exactly what I think yet about 4 yr college, my professors are all just people who have a teaching degree and some sort of doctorate unlike the teachers at nvcc who were all cops, or nurses, or biologists, who had a large amount of field experience and took the time to get to know everyone. My psychology class has like over a hundred people in it so i'm a number not a name, my communication class teacher talks way to fast and gasps for air, and my english teacher said that if your the shittiest writer in the world and you improve to just semi shitty you can get an a, but if your an above average writer and dont make marked improvement you could fail the class. The problem is, when I try, I actually write very well, and i dont think I can improve much (not that im perfect, just stubborn in my writing ways). I like my online human biology course, but thats just cuz its in my major (and im a walking what humans are made of atlas). Oh, I'm also attempting to move out soon because i need freeedddoooommm so I'm looking for a roomate in an apartment, or townhome, or house, or anything! anyway, my whole entrys probably rather boring, but i've had a ton of catching up to do. I'll be back to my usual type entries soon prolly. I still have a chapter in my psych book to do and a lot of human bio catch up work to do, so adios for now!

~Marie

Eewe, I've been feeling just kind of generally yicky the past few days...like queasy...ever since i ate ihop for breakfast...mmm food poisoning....woo-hoo! in other delightful news I get to have loads of fun filling out a huge packet for fire rescue about what I want done when i die in the L.O.D. and who I want told what etc   and then theyre going to seal the envelope to not be opened until I keel over and it will be kept at our communications center.....  Oh, and on the 25th I'm rappelling out of the high bay at the fire academy...so if yall never hear from me again after that it's because I was a failure and forgot how to tie my clove hitch or figure 8 or figure 8 with a bite, or square knot, or my harness,  or for that matter all of the above..... that would be pretty pathetic if i forgot seeing as how i've been rock climbing and going down zip lines since i can menember.......  apparently if we have good knot tyin skills we're jumpin out the butterfly way where you just wrap the rope round each arm a few times.... we'd have 2 safety's for that one.... that should be interestin... i'll make sure to get pictures.....    o ya and im trying to figure out which license plate I want... here are my options:

1. UB CWAZY

2. BANANA2

3. 5-0 EMS

4. IB IDGIT

5. ADHDGRL

6. POLIMED

7. ESPLOWR

8. EXPLOWR

9. 5-0 NEMT

10. 5-0 NEMS

11. POLEECE  (i dont really want my car eggd that bad...)

12. AAAHHHH

13. NANA FON

14. UBSIG34 (our mental subject code is signal 34)

ok so each person vote for ur favorite and whichever end s up most ill get

( survey )

I MADE LIEUTENANT!!!!!!! YAAAAAYYYY!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY, OH AND OUR CAPTAIN IS APPLYING TO THE DEPARTMENT NOW SO HE'LL PROBABLY BE LEAVING AT THE END OF THE YEAR AND MAYB I'LL GETTA BE A CAPTAIN FOR A YEAR, THAT WOULD BE SOOOOO AWESOME!!!!!!!

Your responses will be screened so that only I can see :)

1. Tell me something obvious about you.
2. Tell me something about you that many don't know.
3. What is your biggest fear?
4. Do you normally go the safe route or take the short cut?
5. Name one thing you want that you can't buy with money.
6. What is your most treasured possession?
7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do often?
8. Tell me something sexually about you that I don't know.
9. Tell me something sexually about you that everyone knows.
10. What is your favorite lie to tell?
11. Name something you've done once that you can't wait to do again.
12. Are you the jealous type?
13. What is the one person, place or thing you can't say no to?
14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?
15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?
16. When was the last time you cried?
17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?
18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?
19. Name something embarrassing you did while being drunk.
20. If you post this in your journal would you like me to answer it?

ok, so this is a shameless plug to get some much needed help, but anyway, i volunteer with fcpd in a program for kids age 14-21 and in order to go to national competitions and such we need money, sooo on friday july 8th and saturday july 23rd at the burke walmart we are doing a 5 dolla carwash plus a bake sale, so it would be much appreciated if you tell anyone, everyone, even that inanimate object that has a car, to come to the burke walmart between 11am and 5pm and get a good cheap carwash, hey you can munch on a cheap brownie/cookie/insert snack here AAND laugh at my car washing attempts, plus its for a good cause.

thanks much!!!!

YAY my birthdays in 10 days!!!!


http://www.saab-stuff.com/pop.swf hehehehehe

woa..... the pope died..... im not even catholic but its still really sad, may he rest in peace....

i think like half the people i know are angry at me for some reason this week..... friends, family, my dogs pet squerrl, um ya, about that, that was fun.........

anyways, um, hi,

so to distract from the bad vibes heres a funny link:

http://anomalies-unlimited.com/Jackson.html

its funny in a scary pathetic way, but thats alright

p.s. to all,

i sowwies for whatever i did to piss yall off this week..... im just weetoddid, or something...........

( helo )

LAST PERSON WHO:
x. Slept in your bed: heh.....ummm.....no one?
x. Saw you cry: sam awhile back
x. Made you cry: stupid rules...
x. You cried over: being alone :(
x. You spent the night with: UMM.... i spent the night at miss sams house, does that count?
x. You went to the movies with: Alec to go see Hostage
x. You went to the mall with: Sam and Marshall
x. Yelled at you: mommy again
HAVE YOU EVER
x. Said "I love you" and meant it: yes. to my family.
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yes stupid friggin demented epileptic frontal lobotomied seizure dog!!! i luvs her tho, i really do... soooo stupid
x. Been to New York: never :(
x. Florida: actually visiting, 3 yrs ago, goin from a ship to a plane, this year
x. California: yep yep :) i miss it, its been awhile, im a cali girl (born there atleast) :D
x. Hawaii: no but I REALLY REALLY WANNA GO
x. Mexico: yep yep, acapulco (trashy gang infested pit) and cabo san lucas (pretty place along the beach atleast)
x. China: Nope, looks cool tho
x. Canada: heh, does the area around the falls count as real canada? they even fly our flag w/ theirs
x. Danced naked: no. scary thought.
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? not real crazy, but ive dreamed stuff and it happens, i get feelings bout things too, like right be4 my grampa died :(
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: would make being a leo a lot easier, but i like being a girl sometimes...
x. Had an imaginary friend: yes, his name is bob
x. Fought with your parents: hahahaha im part german, nuff said....
x. Things you like in a boy/ girl: good personality, good sense of humor, understands my crazy drive to become super cop flight medic helicopter lady, similar interests (im sorry, non first responders just dont understand first responders enough, for the 2 a bad day is waaay different)
x. What book are you reading now: the tactical edge:surviving high risk patrol (bible for survival ::lololol rotflmao::)
x. Worst feeling in the world: being alone :(... starting to get used to it tho.....
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: why am i up before 4pm again? hey look im breathing, yaaay. What good can i do today?
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: yes, my bebe that was made for me back when i weighed 2 pounds and my teddy bear snowball (im such a dork)
x. What's under your bed: a monster
x. Siblings: dianne, greg, jenny
x. Location: ?
x. Piercings/tattoos: 9 earrings, the only time id ever consider getting a tatoo is if one of my fellow officers died in the line of duty (so far since dept started only accidents, none murdered ::crosses fingers::)
x. Do you do drugs: Nope. never. nada. noooo mam, nooo sir.
x. Do you drink:nope
x. Who are your best friends: Sam, Vanessa, Heather, Marshall, Alec, James, Brittany, Stephanie, Krysta, umm.... that works oh and bob, cant forget the invisible friend bob.
x. What are you most scared of: being alone forever, having work always interfere with everything else
x. What clothes do you sleep in: either silky happy cloud pajamas or bdu's and a sweatshirt (hey, they're comfy!)
x. Who do you really hate: my ex stepdad for all the shit he put me thru....
x. Been in love: dont think so :-/
x. Do you have a job: watching the wee uns.... i count school and all my volunteering as jobs too, they're just unpaid jobs...
x. Do you like being around people: yes, of course, with the job i want you HAVE to like being around people.
x. Are you a health freak: working on it, starting to go to the gym again to get my ass into shape
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU
x. Cried: no, takes a lot to make me cry
x. Bought something: yes, girlscout cookies :)
x. Gotten sick: nope
x. Sang: yep in the car by myself
x. Met someone new: naw
x. Talked to someone: haha, me NOT talking to someone in 48 hours is physically impossible
x. Missed someone: um yes.. i miss ma friends :(

i'm really depressed today..... i need a hug.... :(

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